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11.46am Greetings, people! Guess I have neglected this blog for many weeks. Was I busy? Yes. Was I too busy studying? No, I guess. Thing is, the schedule is so messed up. It made me so tired and I can't stay up too late because I got to wake up early for 8am classes! However, this weekend marks a history for me. (A history? Oh, please....) Well for me, at least. I'm still going to consider it as a history! I STAYED FOR THE WEEKEND AND DID NOT GO HOME FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER IN THIS SEMESTER. *yay* So what did I do? Man, I finally went out with my gay friend, Afif. We watched Star Wars. I was a little too excited. I would rate the movie a 8.5 out of 10. I dig Star Wars and they sure did not disappoint their fans. Thumbs up! Anyway I was a bit clueless in the movie hall. There were guys all around me. Every single time Chewie (Chewbacca) appears in the screen, the guys (including my friend Afif) would go ''awwwwww so cute'' while their eyes went glazing loo...

It's 12.47am, I should be revising account or sleeping because I have class at 8am to 5pm tomorrow. Frankly speaking, I can't do neither revising or sleeping. I'm just so downhearted to do anything. You know what I want to do? To hug my granny in my arms. I miss you so much, tokmak. I hope you're feeling better. This post has nothing to do with the 1.0's. She got mild stroke attack on her right side last week. What makes me sad is that I can't face the music that my grandmother is so old. Too old. I hope she's 10 years younger and healthier. I want her to live longer. We need her, I need her. I believe for those who have a grandmother knows and feel the same that grandmothers are mothers of all kindness. They are the queens of the queens. Whenever I hear or see the act of kindness, it automatically reminds me of her. It's like the equation of the word Kindness=Grandmother. I have no more strength to write more, or feel like it. I just wanna be by her...

I've kept this entry for so many months in the draft, I think now is the time to release it. This was made in April, 21st. _______________________________________________________________________________ Today, the reality hit me hard. I mean, in such good ways. Like when our teachers hit our hands during our pre-school days because we held the pencil wrongly. But can't put all blame on us tho, writing the letter R was hard. Oh and as for me, Q too. Oh wow, I've mentioned one of my childhood memories there. So now I shall continue. Referring to the title; my grand granny. My grand granny has never harmed me in my whole 18 years of life. Not even a pinch. Thank you, my lovely tokmak. This week, my grand granny who has never even pinched me, got sick. Like, she's terribly under the weather. It makes me feel so terrified. Nothing has ever terrified me like she did. I was taking care of her in one morning, she was lying on her bed. I sat next to her, watching this p...