I'm totally screwed.
Screwed.
Screwed.
Screwed.
I ain't nothing but a LAZY peasant/potato! I'm so mad at myself right now. Final is like 3 weeks away. I'm taking it for granted, like totally. My notes, tutorials of all subjects are COMPLETED. AND I LOVE THEM ALL. *narcissism is fine* All I have to do is to :
- read them all over again (OK.)
- practice answering past years papers (OK.)
- read them again (OK.)
-practice writing them, basically a warm up for my fingers to write 3 hrs non-stop (OK.)
- pre-memorize all authorities (NOT OK.)
HELLLLLLLLLLLO! We're doing law here, what are answers without authorities?! EXACTLY. NOTHING. Usually I would have pre-memorize them a month before finals. NOW I'm only rolling on my bed looking at my bundle of authorities on my study table "You can wait." YOU CAN WAIT, MY @SS.
As a matter of fact, it is now so fun reading cases. I truly enjoy reading cases. No, I'm not crazy and I'm not kidding. I read contract cases all night and have always thought "This is actually fun" But the thing is, I don't have anylust interest to memorize them when I REALLY SHOULD. Guess it's fair to gain one, lose another huh? ANYWAY. This is not what I really need at the moment. I know it's also a good thing that I have interest in all those many cases but I really need myself to put on effort to memorize them. Either way, I'll screw myself up. Of course I remember what happen in each case, which provisions, what issues - but I don't remember the details though (ie:date of money transactions)
I also have I'm going to mess up my first semester result so bad.......... That makes me sad now. But it's no use if I don't change anything. I want to change. That's a little motivation for me. I don't have motivation or trigger to make me move. I know it's utter bullshit to say I have no motivation when I completely, obviously have my parents as my motivation to keep going but.................ugh.
Future self, I'm sorry but I will at least try to get back on track. You deserve whatever you get. Good or bad. Good or bad.
Screwed.
Screwed.
Screwed.
I ain't nothing but a LAZY peasant/potato! I'm so mad at myself right now. Final is like 3 weeks away. I'm taking it for granted, like totally. My notes, tutorials of all subjects are COMPLETED. AND I LOVE THEM ALL. *narcissism is fine* All I have to do is to :
- read them all over again (OK.)
- practice answering past years papers (OK.)
- read them again (OK.)
-practice writing them, basically a warm up for my fingers to write 3 hrs non-stop (OK.)
- pre-memorize all authorities (NOT OK.)
HELLLLLLLLLLLO! We're doing law here, what are answers without authorities?! EXACTLY. NOTHING. Usually I would have pre-memorize them a month before finals. NOW I'm only rolling on my bed looking at my bundle of authorities on my study table "You can wait." YOU CAN WAIT, MY @SS.
As a matter of fact, it is now so fun reading cases. I truly enjoy reading cases. No, I'm not crazy and I'm not kidding. I read contract cases all night and have always thought "This is actually fun" But the thing is, I don't have any
I also have I'm going to mess up my first semester result so bad.......... That makes me sad now. But it's no use if I don't change anything. I want to change. That's a little motivation for me. I don't have motivation or trigger to make me move. I know it's utter bullshit to say I have no motivation when I completely, obviously have my parents as my motivation to keep going but.................ugh.
Future self, I'm sorry but I will at least try to get back on track. You deserve whatever you get. Good or bad. Good or bad.
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